If I am to be the greater part of myself I must leave myself to allow the self to fully realize. I cannot be there. I must leave there and watch from a distance. Own nothing. Control everything. So the self becomes an extension, not an identity. To do this letting go is the beginning. Acting as if they were never there ... the self ... is the next. Acting as if the self were a toy or tool you found on the ground and are now testing out. When you look or breathe or move it’s with intention because you are NOT the self. You are the user of the self. The self can be picked up or put down at anytime. Much like the cellphone. So, what you believe you are having as your own real experience is the temporary experience through a channel you watch with a transmitting device you currently hold. When you think you are created in and through identity, you box yourself into that experience, unable to separate or properly monitor the activity. You are originally separate from the package as a child. Then the environment of the toy itself begins to wrap it’s influence around you. This is advertising. This is channeling from within the false environment of the toy. Alcohol marketing tells you that you will be socially accepted if you drink. Weed makes you not care about your power. Stimulants often make you feel focused but tend to steal your peripheral vision. Then there’s the TV, the streamed shows and games, and the social media consumption. Those create stimulation as well. They resemble the experience the self is supposed to be having but within the confines of a comfortable environment. So...you watch an adventure but do not reap the rewards of the adventure. Your mind is excited by this adventure but it gains no wisdom, no perspective, no fat loss, no muscle, no sunlight, no air-earth-water nutrients. You ‘feel’ like you get something but what you really get is robbed. Leave.
WHEN DID MARKETING LAST FIX YOU?
Greatest shape of my life. Powerful. Excited. Learning at accelerated rate fast fast fast fucking fast. Good. More. Sleep is good. Sleeping better. Cut caffeine. Don’t miss it. Maybe sometimes a tasty energy drink but raaaaaarely. No smoke. No alcohol. No. Clean. Special sana sana liquid help me feel better. Lots of water. Even back to reading books more often. Still a space of distraction seeking when reading but coming around very quickly.
I don’t want to react to losers anymore. At least not negatively. I want to laugh powerfully in their face. They push I laugh. The ball up their fists I laugh. The threaten and I laugh so hard I lose breath. They attack I destroy. Separate. Separate. Separate. Attack. Attack. Attack. AN/DE. ACV/NAD. Allign. The spells cast on the sun and the moon do the work. Self Care/High Stress Tolerance. Lack Empathy/Don’t Care. Observe it all. Allign with your greatest observations. Enjoy the ride.
You will rip him from his illusion. The glass will break the mirrors will scatter the dust will settle and his power will be given room to expand. - Apple pie. You are seeing it all. You see. Seeeeeee. Siiiiii. Not much to day. Just don’t burn out. Your channel will grow stronger but give it time to grow. Days should be good enough for great roi. Msnipulate time. Now is good time to do so. Man0i0pulate. Own nothing. It’s not yours. It’s yours to control. Hungry. Time. Go. - Even great philosophy must be vetted against the real world, which you are separate from. Only temporary experiencing. You consciousness. Your vehicle. The body. Your hotline. Ahti. Your mechanic. Diet. Stretching. Power development. POWERRRRRRRRR!!!! I feel tension. Just feel it.
It has been raining like crazy. My Anima came back! I was wrong about the neighbor. Which means I don’t know why he feels or acts so awkward around me. I know it has something to do with my lack of attention giving. Which I still don’t like to give. People don’t appreciate it much. It’s awkward. Maybe overly present. I can at least relax about it. I don’t mind people feeling weird around me. I know I’m weird. Weird as in the more original meanings...supernatural existence...having the power to control destiny. It’s not debilitating as it once was to me. To my ‘self’. I am much more comfortable staying at home. The FOMO is fading...has faded...had faded.
I love Anima. Cuuuuute cat. Definitely street cat. She visited for about an hour covered in rainfall. I dried her out and fed her. She’s fat. I’m not the only one, lol. She hung out and cleaned herself up. We played and petted for awhile. Lots of love. She needed it. Empty your cup so that it may be filled. Once full, stop pouring. She shows me that. She will play and hang out to her contentment. Then...back out into the rain. Funny. Gata Callejera.
I don’t drink coffee but I do take supplements with caffeine from a place I used to work. They work a lot better than a coffee and there’s really no crash because it’s one of those herbal stack supplements. I don’t even take a full dose. I did my kettlebell swings successfully and I am starting to see the cuts in my stomach. I will end up in better shape than when I was in high school. I like it. Ahti loves it. We have to learn about credit today. More learning. More and More. I sprayed some sana sana on my back and knees and feel better. I also got on my TENS unit to work my lower back and right knee. I could easily eat more. I gotta go veggie and tuna shopping. I will be doing Capoeira at home today. I have been listening to long melodic drum and bass female vocal tracks. They feel good. Loud or background.
I have to go.
Bye.
