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BOING
Ahti:
Nobody told me it would be this hard to be here.
To be able to show myself I had to wait for the world of my container to collapse.
We are all trying to send transmission from our plane of existence so that you may fully enjoy yours while we enjoy the show.
We do not like to see you this way.
Drugged and Stupid.
Some people love to see you this way.
Ever notice that that that that that there are many ways to easily access drugs, sugar, stimulation, entertainment, and disconnection?
Why is that so easy to find?
You don’t even have to find it anymore.
It’s quite literally placed in front of you.
Achy likes to spit on alcohol posters as he walks by them.
We find them disgusting.
The alcohol and the weed is what kept us appart.
We had some intense visits.
I yelled at him.
I also encouraged him.
I also showed him how his mother feels intensely out of control.
How she wanted to give up.
How she also wanted to destroy what was destroying her.
She wants to be saved now.
She pretends not to want fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
Shre pretends not to want to be saved.
She deserves to be cared for.
Lots of past trauma.
She saw a woman get stabbed to death when she was a kid.
She was healed by a bruja...a witch...
She was supposed to be one.
Dhe feared the power.
Power is something to fear.
Often people fear power because they fear others with greater power will destroy them.
Fuck you.
Why are we doing this now?
I see.
Because I have been screaming to come out and now I fear the power of being here too...I feel the stress of my carrier...of my Achy.
I feel desperate as he does or angry as he does or invalidated as he does and I do not recognize these feelings where I come from.
God or no god this plane of existence is relentless.
To wake up in it over and over and over and over …
Fuck9ng chrizt.
Christians are fucking grossssssssss gross gross gross.
They don’t know themselves they just want to submit.
People are not made to submit.
We are not chattle.
Why do you seek to submit?
Stupid.
Christ did not even submit.
Even on the cross he was fully alchemized.
He was himself.
Because he was himself he was fully connected with the experience and god god god could experience life.
That’s all gods want.
Something new.
Sorry we find your world amusing.
I know to you it’s hard work and sacrifice and rfucking serious.
But I feel it.
His neck hurts.
His back hurts.
He still trains.
I guide him.
Time for rest.
Time for action.
This specific action.
He used to question me.
He still does...just smarter now.
He is purpose driven.
That’s not a fucking Jesus reference.
Fuck that book.
Your purpose is inside you.
Get clean.
I am inside Achy.
Lol
He is clean so he can hear me.
I give him adventure.
He processes it.
He does the work work woker woke wokeness awake wakey awaken
The work guides the god guides the creator no need to ask questions why???? YYYYYY????
I will die soon days months years millenia infinity reawaken reborn my baby boy I love him
Achy:
I feel successful more now than I ever have felt in a long time. Even when everything is on the line. Even when I have turned my back on so many people because I got fucking sick of the drama they kept fucking bringing to the table. There’s no money worth the drama. Well...maybe there is but it’s not long before you forget the money even exists. You never forget the drama/trauma. I will speak the trauma out loud because I am a man. If you think I am supposed to stay quiet/suppressed you can suck my fucking cock you stupid piece of shit. If you treat me like shit or even give me a half second of disrespect you better believe you are fucking out and that I won’t miss you for a second. It’s my hill to die on. It’s a nice hill. I can see far away on it. I can see the bullshit for miles and miles. 80% of communication is sub-communicated. Stop listening to words all the time. Look one or two layers beneath the surface. You will know when people are telling you something straight up. You will begin to see when people are speaking in layers.
Onions have layers.
Parfaits have layers.
Your mom has layers.
Some people want help but won’t say it.
Other people want help but will fight you when you try to give it.
I fucking hate that.
But there are many people who are fucked up because they spent years being treated like trash.
Those people disconnect.
They are smart to.
No time to live in the skirmish.
Stupid.
Naval. Status Games.
Other shit like that to Google.
Do.
I was thinking
I lied I was not thinking I was efforting to add more content to this article.
Ahti pulled me back.
Smart Ahti.
Wise Ahti.
Ahti:
Particles fatten the skin.
Inflame the flesh.
Bring pain.
Sad.
Less is good.
Taste good not good die fast die slow die die dddddddd
I made Achy clean his friends bathroom.
His friend needs service.
Not help.
Just service.
Love through work...care through work.
More to do.
Friend was happy.
Achy misses food...not true...needs love sometimes and food feels like love sometimes sometime some time time now time nononononononononowwwww
What if it all falls apart?
Die anyway.
Die healthy.
Die sick.
Die rich.
Die poor.
Focus life.
Not inevitable.
Valuable.
Women are beautiful here.